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July 21, 2010 @ 11:43 AM
and it's always times like this where I'm reminded of how little friends I have I'm supposed to be working now but my mind's somewhere where?? I don't know but definitely not focusing enough on whatever I'm doing I think I have a headache but then again I think I don't I'm just fruastrated with what I don't know irritated too I just don't have enough determination and concentration on something for too long the feelings are back the passion is back but I don't know what to do about it and there's nobody around for advice nobody close enough or just somebody I can feel unembarrassed bout this issue there's just nobody I can rely on bout this but I'm glad that the passion is back and I no longer feel nothing towards it =) but this might just be one of the times where I'm overly confident of myself might be just one of the times where I think too highly of myself and whatever I'm feeling might just go away again after a while I'm turning 21 soon I know I don't want an ordinary office life but there's nothing else I can do about it and I don't know how to change that too I certainly not office lady material I hate computers projects deadlines I hate office wear and politics I not sure what other job opportunities are there for me I'm not even sure if I can secure a job in the first place I'm too insecure about myself ad everything that lies ahead everything is too bleak and I don't think heaven loves me enough to lend me a helping hand that's why I'm stuck in a lousy company with a lousy part time job and salary and just an average student (maybe not even average...but less than average..) |
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