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July 27, 2010 @ 10:48 PM
! ! ! i wanna meet mr jonghyun lookalike too!!! July 26, 2010 @ 10:34 PM
i can't take it anymore.. everytime a new term starts i just feel like giving up the stress is unbearable but i don't know where my future's heading if i give up now i don't know what to do with myself i really don't understand the point of studying what i'm studying now cause whatever i'm studying now doesnt apply to what i'm gonna do next time (not like i know what i'm gonna do in the future) but what i meant is that my boss aint gonna ask me what theories are applied in these situations and what are adam smith's theories right? i mean what we're studying now are totally irrelevant and what are they gonna do with our essays? they're just gonna return it to us to collect dust or shred it after all the hard work (and tears in my case) we had put into it i'm totally fucked up with all the essays and deadlines everytime a school term starts i just wanna cry and my nightmares start all over again its like freddy haunting me in another horrible way i'm awfully stressed and fucked up but i don't know who to talk to or who to help me several times i thought of quitting school but what?? after that?? what am i gonna do? find a job? or work full time in DCS?? which is way out of path... no way am i gonna work full time in DCS i hate those aunties there then what? the stress is eating into me i can't take it anymore its a chore for me to go school and i can't wait to escape it... @ 9:55 PM
.............. 奉养父母不是一种选择 而是一种责任和义务 July 21, 2010 @ 7:19 PM
周杰倫's FIRST EVER AUTOGRAPH SESSION in Spore 周杰倫's first autograph session in Singapore was at bugis!!! took a detour to bugis to try my luck but failed the crowd was overwhelming the q for the autograph session was too scary for me it's never ending I was standing at my bus stop for quite some time waiting for my bus and the q is never ending even though everyone is movig forward for whatever reason... and anyway the main point is I was standing at my bus stop and this super long white limo drove in omgawd!!! I was like "what??!! I just crossed the road and he reached??!!" Michelle is eating at bugis now not sure if she's able to catch a glimpse of him omgawd!!! this is is FIRST autograph session in Singapore yet I'm not able to witness at least something at least a glimpse at him i am DAMN EMO now hmph... I wanted sooo badly to go and snoop around but there's nobody with me I can't possibly go there alone i just wanna stay behind and look what happens next but I'm alone watching him alone amongst soo many people that's the max..I can't do it and crap I forgot to buy my dinner I'm gonna starve might as well I can starve myself then since I'm so fat 5 burgers in my stomach what crap I'm feeling damn irritated now I can scream someone's head off @ 11:43 AM
and it's always times like this where I'm reminded of how little friends I have I'm supposed to be working now but my mind's somewhere where?? I don't know but definitely not focusing enough on whatever I'm doing I think I have a headache but then again I think I don't I'm just fruastrated with what I don't know irritated too I just don't have enough determination and concentration on something for too long the feelings are back the passion is back but I don't know what to do about it and there's nobody around for advice nobody close enough or just somebody I can feel unembarrassed bout this issue there's just nobody I can rely on bout this but I'm glad that the passion is back and I no longer feel nothing towards it =) but this might just be one of the times where I'm overly confident of myself might be just one of the times where I think too highly of myself and whatever I'm feeling might just go away again after a while I'm turning 21 soon I know I don't want an ordinary office life but there's nothing else I can do about it and I don't know how to change that too I certainly not office lady material I hate computers projects deadlines I hate office wear and politics I not sure what other job opportunities are there for me I'm not even sure if I can secure a job in the first place I'm too insecure about myself ad everything that lies ahead everything is too bleak and I don't think heaven loves me enough to lend me a helping hand that's why I'm stuck in a lousy company with a lousy part time job and salary and just an average student (maybe not even average...but less than average..) July 20, 2010 @ 11:11 AM
............................... sometimes.i.think.too.highly.of.myself. sometimes.i.imagine.too.much. sometimes.i.daydream.alot. but.the.overpowering.confidence.and.truth. people.and.the.things.they.say. shoved.me.back.to.reality. harsh.reality. July 19, 2010 @ 8:48 AM
宽恕 ... 神木与瞳 宽恕 ... 神木与瞳 面对面坐着 眼神不屑一顾 挤出的笑容 看起来好突兀 我走错一步 坠入万丈深谷 还是会想起 你的荒唐糊涂 针刚刺在心上 血流已如注 背叛了幸福 拿爱当赌注 曾把感情放逐 何时能结束 遇到你我想停止游牧 让爱归真返璞 漂泊会落幕 承诺说得那么铭心刻骨 你的眼泪让我无助 你懂不懂我为爱忍辱 努力学习宽恕 原谅那错误 不甘我们的爱 死在半途 听见你的心还在哭 遗忘不及痛蔓延速度 希望你能觉悟 我真的领悟 伤口慢慢愈合 再被爱包覆 还是会想起 你的荒唐糊涂 针刚刺在心上 血流已如注 背叛了幸福 拿爱当赌注 曾把感情放逐 何时能结束 遇到你我想停止游牧 让爱归真返璞 漂泊会落幕 承诺说得那么铭心刻骨 你的眼泪让我无助 你懂不懂我为爱忍辱 努力学习宽恕 原谅那错误 不甘我们的爱 死在半途 听见你的心还在哭 遗忘不及痛蔓延速度 希望你能觉悟 我真的领悟 伤口慢慢愈合 再被爱包覆 July 9, 2010 @ 9:48 PM
phase hairdressing went.to.phase.on.thurs. and.did.my.hair. my.hair.was.horrible. not.that.it.looked.any.better.after.the.SGD235.reconstruction.treatment. which.was.supposed.to.make.my.hair.less.vulnerable.and.weak. but.i.guess. i'll.have.to.wait.until.tomorrow.after.i.wash.my.hair. the.stylist.said.i.cant.wash.my.hair.for.2days. soooo.. my.hair.is.bunned.up. and.i.think.it.stink.like.hell.now. mic.said.it.looked.better. but.i.didnt.think.so. not.what.i.expected. but.then.again. i'll.have.to.wait.till.tomorrow.to.judge. if only you heard me if only you knew then maybe life wouldnt be the same there's only one chance but we missed it maybe it wasnt meant to be in the first place and thats the reason why there's nothing else to be done maybe its just fate? July 4, 2010 @ 4:11 PM
MLIA most.of.the.time.we.don't.get.what.we.want.in.life. thats.devastating. even.though.we.pray.sooo.hard. its.never.gonna.happen. no.matter.how.badly.we.want.it. its.never.ever.gonna.happen. unless.your.life.is.out.of.ordinary. your.life.is.NOT.average. which.doesnt.apply.to.most.of.us. our.lives.are.average.in.a.way.or.another. that.perfect.united.tight.kinship. that.ridiculously.expensive.dress.behind.that.glass.door. that.kinda.of.flawless.complexion. the.figure.of.that.model.or.star. that.perfect.guy.you're.eyeing.for.your.entire.life. all.of.that. is.never.gonna.be.yours. except.the.flawless.complexion.and.the.figure. which.could.be.achieved.by.plastic.surgery. :) anyway. my.life.isnt.perfect. and.it.makes.me.feel.a.little.better.that.yours.isnt.too. :D July 3, 2010 @ 2:18 PM
there goes my gst offsets   bought these yesterday while shopping with XT after work cause she had to look for her friend's present hahaha... my moschino glamourous perfume is running out always wanted to get juicy's so with the GST offset thingy i got it finally...with alot of freebies included!!! bought an arnold palmer polo tee as well but its in the washing machine now... and a C&K wallet(pink!!) i'm looking for yellow stuff so into yellow recently dunnoe why... :) was in a baking and cooking craze for the past few weeks and these were my creations... wasnt really successful though... wanna try making korean rice cakes.. but that will have to wait cause school starts next week and I AM NOT READY i havent had enough fun yet!!! Xiao Long Bao   Chocolate and Cheese Truffles  Oreo Truffles  Onde Onde  |
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