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January 28, 2010 @ 7:48 PM
3/5 retrenchment. being.nice.to.you.=.putting.myself.at.the.bottom.pits.of.hell. i.havent.been.giving.myself.credit.for.some.time. i.think.i'm.a.nice.human.being. exceptional.on.some.ocassions. but.overall. i'm.passable. my.posts.are.often.emo. i.don't.know.why. i.should.try.to.refrain.myself.from.asking.people.out.for.movies. i'm.like.3/5.retrenched. cause.i'm.working.for.like.2.days.out.of.5. so.my.source.of.income.has.plunged.tremendously. but.i'm.still.game.for.Timbre. hahas. i'm.gonna.wait.for.Wennie.to.come.back. and.chiong.to.Timbre.with.her. hehehes. i'm.totally.addicted. there's.alot.of.upcoming.movies.i.wanna.catch. so. i'll.still.go.out.if.you.asked.me. i.don't.think.i.have.strong.determination. hahahas. haiss... i'm.supposed.to.do.my.HMT.assignment. but.damn. i'm.still.blogging. i.am.so.freakin.dead. i'm.reading.online.books.now. HMT.related.stuff. and.i.think.i'm.dropping.into.a.coma. i.hate.school.now. assignments. due.dates. sian... arrggghhhh... January 27, 2010 @ 4:52 PM
on.and.on.and.on.and.on. 还真是一言惊醒梦中人 懵懵懂董中被提醒过了 却都不曾发现 总算知道自己越界了 但却不知道自己该或不该做些什么 纠结在一个不知道该如何摆脱的状况 哭得 都累了 泛红的眼睛 不会再透露出不舍 会在数年后的今天 放肆的大笑 太多的情绪压抑着 让人无法笑开怀 偶尔抱着语不惊人，死不休的想法 还真另类 回头看不发一语的你 默默 微笑了 心里掺杂了从前的喜怒哀乐 却永远也回不去 你 我 都长大了 懂事了 随然残酷 但却是一个最完美的解逅 谢谢了 伤我和爱我的人 都会是我最最最美好的回忆 总会在挣扎中感到绝望无助 哼着最爱的歌曲 会霎时间忘记所有不愉快的 如果是你的耳朵 我会让你听到所有很棒的音乐和激励 听很吊的摇滚乐，浪漫的情歌 小孩的笑声，大自然的呼唤 如果是你的眼睛 我想让你看尽所有美丽的事物 世界的奥妙，奇观 两个老人手牵手 互相扶持 白头到老 想在你身边 不离不弃 永远 永远 been.cautious.in.my.blog.entries.lately. not.sure.who's.reading.it. i.don't.wanna.lock.it. cos.it.defeats.the.purpose.of.a.blog. did.some.soul.searching.today. reflected.on.things.i.did. not.sure.if.they've.been.the.right.things.to.do. i.don't.care.what.they.say. maybe.its.true. maybe.its.not. i'm.not.sure.of.it.myself. but.still. i'm.gonna.stay.away. i'd.try.even.though.i.don't.hold.my.chances.high. i'd.probably.fail.like.all.the.other.times. you.couldnt.help.me. cos.you.wouldnt.know. i'd.wobble. but.i'll.survive... an.optimist.to.others. but.a.pessimist.to.myself. January 24, 2010 @ 6:36 PM
guilt timbre.was.fun.as.usual. goodfellas.were.fantastic. and.of.course.with.great.company. michelle.siewyong.kangwoei.and.xueting. hees. went.to.meet.siewyong.and.kangwoei.at.313.for.lunch.after.our.class.yesterday. both.mic.and.me.thought.that.the.movie.was.at.cineleisure. turned.out. it.was.at.marina.square. had.our.lunch. shopped.a.little.and.went.cityhall.to.look.for.xueting.who.met.us.after.her.church. watched.tooth.fairy. had.all.of.us.roaring.with.laughter. its.the.best.comedy.ever. at.least.for.me. it.was.even.better.than.funny.people. went.loitering.around.after.that. walked.to.raffles.city. ate.macdonalds.and.proceeded.to.timbre.at.about.7.30pm. cos.reservations.was.at.8pm. played.cards. ordered.drinks.and.peking.duck.and.something.chicken.splitzza. xueting.left.early. at.about.11pm.plus.or.so. cos.she.had.something.on.today.and.she.has.to.wake.up.early. so.its.down.to.mic.sy.kw.and.me. wooh. goodfellas.was.really.awesome. i.thought.some.of.the.songs.they.covered.were.even.better.than.the.originals. like."sex on fire" and "i gotta feeling". we.left.at.approximately.2am? after.goodfellas.delivered.the.last.song. mic.sy.and.kw.took.the.NR. while.i.chose.to.walk.home. on.my.way.home. there.was.this.stupid.cockroach.that.chased.me.around. arghhh... the.freaking.thing.got.me.paranoid.after.that. so.i.started.brisk.walking. after.crossing.the.road. i.was.still.walking.pretty.fast. that.was.when.this.brown.dog.appeared.from.nowhere. i.caught.its.eye. it.looked.at.me.while.it.was.approaching.me.cautiously. then.suddenly.it.came.and.walked.beside.me. i.was.super.freaked.out. i.had.this.feeling.that.it.wanted.to.follow.me.home. the.dog.kept.following.me.and.i.walked.even.faster. under.normal.cicumstances, (eg.morning.afternoon...just.not.after.12am) i.would.be.feeling.damn.excited. but... in.the.middle.of.the.night. it.kinda.freak.me.out. maybe.i.watched.too.much.supernatural.stuff. but.i.was.really.really.scared. so.i.picked.up.my.speed. and.suddenly.the.dog.just.stopped.walking. i.slowed.down.a.little. and.i.turned.my.head.while.walking. the.dog.just.gave.me.the.very.very.sad.look. maybe.it.sensed.that.i.was.scared.of.it. my.heart.dropped. but.i.had.to.keep.walking. it.was.a.stray.dog.and.i.really.dunnoe.what.to.do. my.mind.was.blank. i.wanted.to.go.back.and.maybe.show.him.that.its.okay.to.follow.me.home. but.what.comes.after.that. i.dunnoe.if.i'm.allowed.to.keep.him. and.i'm.worried.that.it.followed.me.because.he.thought.that.i.have.food.to.offer.him. (i.was.stinky.after.all.the.walking.so.i.was.kinda.worried.he'll.bite.me.) (i.was.feeling.stupid.i.dunnoe.why.) but.after.the.dog.was.out.of.sight. i.picked.up.speed.again.cause.i.was.nearing.the.trees.area.which.was.pretty.dark. but.all.the.time. i.keep.thinking.of.the.dog. and.i.felt.so.damn.guilty.when.i.remembered.the.look.on.his.face. i.should.have.hugged.it.or.something. but.i.didnt.do.anything. i.just.walked.away. i'm.so.shocked.at.myself.for.being.so.unfeeling.at.that.point.in.time. this.bugged.me.till.today. and.i'm.still.feeling.so.freaking.damn.guilty. arghhh... i.see.hope. just.up.ahead. just.a.few.more.steps. and.maybe.this.time. i'd.finally.find.a.home. somewhere.i.feel.safe.and.loved. i'll.approach.her.slowly. show.her.i'm.friendly. she.smiled.at.me. but.when.i.came.closer. she.kinda.panicked. and.starting.walking.away.fast. away.from.me. my.heart.was.heavy. she.doesnt.seem.to.want.me. i.paused.in.my.footsteps. she.turned.her.head.to.look.at.me. i.wished.and.wished.she'll.come.back. give.me.a.hug.or.a.pat. my.hopes.waivered.and.died. when.she.gave.a.sympathetic.look.and.left. it.never.knew.the.dilemma.i.had.in.me. i.wanted.to.bring.it.home.badly. but.in.the.middle.of.the.night. and.i.was.the.only.wandering.human.around.at.that.point.in.time. i.really.didnt.know.what.i.was.supposed.to.do. it.walked.so.close.to.me. as.if.to.sniff.me. i.thought.it.would.bite.if.it.doesnt.find.anything.it.wanted.or.hope.it.would.find. i.was.afraid.it'll.bite.me.and.there.would.be.nobody.to.help.me. cause.if.i.started.bleeding.i'd.probably.drop.into.a.coma. in.the.end.out.of.self.protection. i.had.to.ignore.it. and.i.wasnt.sure.if.it.was.giving.out.friendly.vibes. even.if.i.love.dogs. i.wasnt.really.a.pro.at.reading.the.signs. i'm.really.sorry. i.didnt.do.anything. and.its.tugging.at.my.heart. bugging.me.the.entire.day. i.think.i'll.drop.by.SPCA.someday. i've.never.been.there.before. i'll.make.a.donation. January 20, 2010 @ 7:11 PM
choo.choo.(train.of.thoughts.) im.floating.around. my.feet. they.never.touch.the.ground. i.wanna.scream. but.they're.all.around. im.smiling.to.myself. satisfied.for.now. now.i.think.it's.time. to.stop.and.think. to.start.the.distance.i.was.harping.on.about. i.hope.i'll.succeed. or.i'll.end.up.with.a.nightmare.that.is.gonna.be.hard.to.wake.up.from. i.skipped.a.little. and.smiled.to.myself. it.isn't.that.hard. if.its.etched.in.my.brain. i'll.keep.it.in.mind. and.keep.myself.in.check. i.hope.i'll.succeed. and.never.lose.to.myself. i.walked.with.a.rhythm. that's.only.in.my.head. they.don't.know.about.it. and.they.don't.have.to. it's.about.keeping.my.grounds. and.hope.that.i.wouldn't.sway. it's.not.gonna.be.easy. but.i'll.try.anyway. betcha.don't.know.what.i'm.talking. but.it's.okay. its.my.confessions. and.its.not.gonna.sound.sane. cause.what's.the.point.of.you.understanding? when.it's.my.train.of.thoughts.and.my.own.ramblings. January 19, 2010 @ 8:31 AM
dayBreakers & my Interesting bus Ride today... i am extremely happy today hahas... i know it sounds stupid but i was smiling to myself after the bus ride to work today the bus ride today was different today i was smiling when i was walking to work i think i look insane to others but i don't care hahas... hmms... my heart was beating damn too fast and i was blushing like mad but...hees... i'll tell you if you ask me...hahas... erm...maybe i'll tell... depends... i'm just to paiseh to post it here... hahas... anyways i watched DayBreakers on Sunday... was awesome till the middle part... cos i don't like the ending... its like mass killings when the movie is about to end... its like "everyone has to die now...we don't have enough time..." whatever... and i don't want edward dalton's brother to die either... hmph... but its really scary if the population is infected with this vampire disease and we have to rely on human blood to sustain our lives and without blood, we would be reduced to hideoous monsters... but according to the movie, there's a cure for it... vampires can actually revert back to human the heart will start beating again overall i think its a good vampire movie scared me a few times with the sudden sound effects but overall i like hehes.. although the ending was a little disappointing... but...wooh... love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! next would be Tooth Fairy & Legion... January 15, 2010 @ 8:30 PM
on.my.way.there. out.the.window.as.the.journey.goes. dark.clouds.hover. but.it.wouldnt.be.raining.soon. she.told.you.she's.fine. but.she's.not. obviously. but.she.wouldnt.tell. or.maybe.she.doesnt.know.how.to.bring.it.across. tears.welled.up. because.you.cared. touched. we're.gonna.reach.soon. where. i.don't.know. no.one.ever.knows. its.dark.out.there. we.need.something.to.guide.us. maybe.a.torchlight.matchstick.lighter.handphone. just.something.to.light.and.show.us.the.way. her.footsteps.were.getting.heavier.as.hours.passed. but.still. they.were.nowhere. lost. she.broke.down. as.disappointment.swept.over.her. as.always. January 9, 2010 @ 7:05 PM
i'm.tired. mentally.and.physically. everyday. a.constant.reminder.is.terrible. find.me. a.secluded.place. give.me.a.call.when.you're.free. but.i.might.not.pick.up.the.phone. i.might.have.passed.on. and.never.come.back. fate.and.destiny.were.never.on.my.hands. i'm.just.a.nuisance.to.nature.if.i.tried.too.hard. January 1, 2010 @ 2:54 PM
happie.new.year.its.2010. happie.new.year!!! its.01-01-2010. 很.遗.憾...我.们.从.相.识. nice.and.approachable. does.that.imply.that.i'm.easy.to.get.rid.of.when.i'm.no.longer.in.need? |
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